Just like us, isn’t it?w
It’s sucks going to bed without talking to you. Its sucks I can’t take care of you when in need. But I can at least tell you this; I love you. Good night.
That was the hardest things I’ve ever had to do… stand at the airport and say goodbye. It was like a movie. I couldn’t believe it either. I looked around a little bit hoping it to see someone filming because it just didn’t feel like real life. And then I waited for something amazing to happen. Like in the movies…the flight gets cancelled or at the last minute I get a call saying I’d be able to stay. Or something. So I lingered a bit at the security. But they let me through. And that was it. No one stopped me. No one said ok, now please go back to your regular life. I had to get on that plane. And leave. I’m glad no one was sitting next to me because I cried the whole time. I remember what Melissa said about getting drunk on the plane since drinks are free and its a long flight. But I decided not to. You can’t drown your pain in alcohol, it just results in health problems. So like a good girl, I just drank lots and lots of apple juice and kept taking out my camera, looking at our pictures of Sweets Forest, Hotel, Ramen, and just the last ffew days that we spent together. We may not have gone out to do amazing things. But just being together made it the best for me. Just sitting on a chair together. Eating a simple meal. Watching a movie on the computer. Sounds so mundane. But if you do it together, it means the world. To me. To be. With you. I keep dreaming of the day, when we see each other at the airport. It will all be worth it. Because it’ll be with you.
I wish I could comment on your blog but there is no space for comment so I just made up my mind to start a blog only for you.
That was totally out of my plan. I knew we were gonna be in long distance, but who imagined we were gonna say good-bye in March? I cried a lot too. I know its not cool but I just couldnt help. I know I cry by watching moving drama or movie. But I had never cried this much since 17 by something happend to me. You know what I always thought when my tears came out? Damn, I have never met such a girl who makes me cry! What a girlfrind!!
Ya I recall your flight was 1:50PM. So around 1PM We said good bye at the gate, bearing my tears in my eyes. Actually I tried not to cry at all and I did quite well. haha. but after all I failed. I remember the scene that after you passed the baggage gate, you turned to me and made a smile for me. And you left. In an instant, all tears I was holding in my eyes came out. So uncool. I was like a drama king. again, what a girlfriend! I didn’t wanna leave until you fly away because I expected same thing as you did. So I ate ramen. I was so hungry. It was the first time eating ramen feeling so sad and crying. never again. I went back to my car. I waited for you to email me a sudden good news so that I can pick you up immediately. but you didn’t give me a good news. What a girlfriend!! Again! You emailed me until you start flying. To be honest with you I hated to reply “i love you” or “I will be waiting” at that moment because all I wanted to do was to hug you and say “Don’t leave. You stay with me forever”. I felt soooooo powerless.
I wonder if your tears tasted apple juice. I know, just being with you was everything for those few days. I could decide to go to an amazing place like amusument park or movie theater or whatever to be excited together. But rather than that, I wanted to have a daily life and laugh at a small thing together, And face you and feel you as much as I can so that I will never forget how you smile, smell, taste, laugh and feel. Ah, reminding these things make me cry again.w we do slype a lot but still, it’s so different from being together and hold hand. I cant wait to see you in the summer. i will definately meet you in the summer either in the US or in Japan whatever you are doing. (if I have a good job)
So happy happy 2 months anniversary. I am happy even though this long distance since I have your heart with me. You are the only one best girl in the world that is unreplaceable. I love you so much. our rings are gonna arrive soon. Let’s open them together.
